A few days ago I met up with a dear friend of mine for a catch up at a place called Melange in Crouchend. Inspired from Southern France, Italy and Spain, this place brings holiday and sunshine inspired dishes to you. We ordered a latte ofcourse with super green salads with halloumi and fries. It was pricy but super yummy and a nice treat once in a while.
Waiting in the waiting area as I wait to be called in, I'm feeling nervous as I haven't been here in a long time due to unseen circumstances. To be honest, I don't know how I should feel. I think to myself, what am I going to say, have I improved or regressed. Dammit, I just realised I forgot to do my questionnaire before the session and now I feel more anxious than before because I don't want to be a disappointment. Regardless this is for the benefit of my mental being and it's a good thing that I'm here and to be fair I have come along way due to therapy so I shouldn't have anything to fear. But when you have been away from something for some time and have to get back to it, it can be scary as it's like doing something new again. Will these feelings go away or will they linger I wonder?
It's always such a nice feeling to wake up feeling positive and not so anxious. Today I woke up with no problems in my head, ready to take the work day on. Although knowing how life loves to throw hurdles at you, it probably won't last long knowing how humans can be. However I'm going to embrace this moment for what it is and enjoy it even if it's for a short time.
Coffee to wake the soul, to endure the long day ahead. Lets begin this cold autumn day.
Does anyone else hate going to work on your first day of being on your period? Yes it's a little TMI but that's reality, I've always disliked being on my period especially on the initial heavy days with constant back aches, feeling sick and having no energy. It's worse because I work in retail and have to be on my feet all day, only 6 hrs today thank god but also kill me now, put me out of this misery. What also annoys me is that I have to go to the loo more often but no one seems to understand that at work and think I'm slacking off but I swear I'm not, I'm just paranoid. I'm sure many can relate but that's still not comforting me but the end of my shift which I haven't even began is. Something you will begin to say to yourself a lot if you work in retail is hopefully my shift is drama free concerning me which is kind of insane and shows the environment you work in, almost like high school. Well, I need to go, wish me luck. I will need it.
- scarf - coat - pumpkin spice latte - cinnamon latte - gloves - beret - walks in the park - brown tones - halloween - horror films - knee high socks - cosy jumpers - cardigans - hot chocolate - fallen leaves - long nights - boots - tights - skirts - dresses